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  • Her Day at The Beach

    Gwen opened the middle drawer of her desk and saw box after box of tea jammed one next to the other. Some were decorated in pastels, others in bright reds and yellows; some featured drawings of animals or pastoral scenes, and all were frightening. Like a banner strung from the tail of an airplane, the drawer’s contents revealed an unmistakable message: Her life was pathetic.

    Each tea had become for her like prayer beads to a Tibetan monk. Waking up would be impossible without Morning Thunder or Earl Grey. In the afternoons, Red Zinger and Cranberry Cove offered temporary refuge from boredom; Tension Tamer helped on stressful days—every day, really—and, after all was said and done, Sleepy Time took her through twilight and into dreams.

    This addiction had snuck up on her. But was it just tea or was it more? Tea and work, she realized. Because if not for all the work, if not for the hours measured in profits gained for Marshall Stevens Investments, Inc., the tea wouldn’t be necessary. Ten minutes sipping tea before the morning commute to convince her that life was not without rewards. Tea sipped in the afternoon, with her assistant Mary, to make them both believe that work was something more, that friendship existed; tea taken to make meetings bearable, or sipped as a reward when her IRA statements arrived, a reminder that one day retirement would come and life will be full. And the worst realization of all—tea to make pee, so that all that water and rose hips would facilitate a delicious moment of release: Tea to produce this most pathetic form of pleasure, because there was so little of it in her life. Tea to hide the truth.
    Gwen put the ball of her forefinger against the phone’s intercom button and listened to the sounds of Mary typing madly, beautifully, like the most passionate of pianists. She thought about inviting her, then realized that Mary, like everyone else, would have to wait for her own epiphany.

    “Mary,” she said, “I’m going to the beach.”

    “What?”

    “I’m going to the beach.”

    What is the opposite of Earl Grey, Gwen asked herself. Tanqueray. She drove to the overpriced Beverly Hills deli down the street and bought a bottle, cups, three limes, some tonic, and a bag of ice. Then she ordered the most fattening sandwich she could imagine: salami on egg bread with avocado.
    “Avocado’s not like you,” said Erica, the sandwich maker, pushing forward the lovely concoction, bundled tight in white butcher paper. Once a doctor’s wife, Erica had recently been dumped “for a girl with fresh ovaries.” She wore her bitterness like the mustard and avocado stains covering her apron.

    “Today’s different,” Gwen said and put five dollars into Erica’s tip jar.

    Cutting through side streets to get to the freeway, Gwen drove fast along roads covered with fallen jacaranda leaves, sending thousands of bright purple petals flying behind her in a tornado of beauty. On the sidewalk a pair of Latina nannies stopped pushing their perambulators and watched her pass. Gwen beeped her horn and threw her fist through the sunroof of her BMW, enjoying this moment of false but intense solidarity. The women waved.
    Forty-five minutes later, Gwen arrived at her favorite beach on a stretch of Malibu far from the movie star homes and surfer boys. Matador, it was called, which in Spanish meant either “bullfighter” or “killer.”

    Gwen stuffed her food, her drinks and a bright yellow bedsheet into her backpack and started down the trail along the cliff.

    What a view. To the right, boulders the size and color of elephants jutted out of the water, sheltering tiny coves that on weekends were considered ”clothing optional.” To the left lay a long, pristine stretch of sand in the middle of which sat a cluster of beach houses. On a weekend day Gwen would have gladly joined the many naked and semi-naked people sitting towel to towel in the cove area, but on a quiet weekday, with not a soul in sight, the beach seemed safer.

    About a mile down the shore, just before the group of houses, Gwen spread her yellow sheet, stripped off her clothes, and lay down right in the center, beseeching the sun to sink its teeth into her. After a few minutes, she felt moisture begin to form on her upper lip, between her fingers, between her breasts.

    She turned over on her stomach, closed her eyes, and inhaled deeply. The sheet had been in the laundry pile for two weeks and smelled—not badly, but with authority—of her life. Before she could stop herself, Gwen moved her face to different spots, searching for a familiar cologne or perfume. She found none and realized that it had been months since anyone, male or female, had left even the faintest of fingerprints on her life.

    She sat up and decided to pour herself a drink, fully realizing she was using alcohol to mask her sadness, but feeling only gratitude for its existence. She chopped the limes—not easy to do with a plastic knife—and squeezed each segment into a glass, adding gin, ice, and tonic. Perfect.

    As she sipped her drink and ate her sandwich, Gwen’s thoughts wandered. She eventually had a memory of a Texas woman she’d met in Puerto Vallarta, who lived in a thatched roof hut, on a beach accessible only by boat. The woman, who had the blond good looks and genteel manners of a former prom queen, had told Gwen that she’d been living for twenty years in her hut, which was built for her by Mexican Mormons.

    “I was so lucky to find Mormons,” she’d said, her Texas drawl still thick. “They don’t drink, so my house was built in two weeks.”

    Could she do the same? Gwen now wondered, and looked up to see a man walking toward her, far down the beach. She watched the man until he was close enough that she could see he was naked.

    That’s all right, not a problem, she thought, although her own nakedness did make her a little nervous. It felt somehow different, no longer hers, or a liability. She considered putting her clothes back on but decided she didn’t want the man to think she was dressing for him.

    She watched until the man was some twenty feet away and slowing down, just as she’d feared.

    “Hi there,” he said, waving awkwardly.

    She nodded and kept her eyes narrow and tough, the sort of eyes one might see on an old, fat dog with a terrible temper or on a naked woman with cellulite on her ass but a black belt in karate.

    The man walked past her. She relaxed and watched him saunter down the beach. He was tanned the color of bittersweet chocolate. Even his posterior had been toasted dark brown. Wide and curved, it reminded her of a heart or a woman’s ass. The rest of his body seemed fairly manly—muscular back, thick calves, hairy legs. On his back he carried a light-colored backpack. From a distance it made it look as if he had a wide, gaping hole in the middle of his torso.

    She watched him walk past the fourth, or possibly fifth, beach house, then she settled back down on her sheet and sighed.

    “That’s fine,” she said aloud and considered dressing, in case another man came by. The next one might bother her, try to sit down, maybe even play with himself. She’d seen that before, on a beach in Santa Barbara. But back then, she was stronger, faster, angrier. She’d thrown rocks at him until he’d gone. Why, she wondered, had she never learned karate?

    Or Portuguese, for that matter? Why had she not traveled to Venice? Why had she never had a child or a husband or even a wife?

    Gwen considered pouring another drink, but the idea angered her. Alcohol, supposedly so powerful, but never, ever able to protect her from certain thoughts. No wonder the Mormons didn’t drink. She inhaled deeply. Who had been the last? A man from work? A lawyer from the fourth floor, or the fifth? Or was it Janey’s cousin Kate, experimenting sloppily with women in the aftermath of a divorce? Maybe the delivery boy from Pink Dot? Who knew?
    Gwen put one hand under her cheek and licked the knuckles, which tasted of lime. The last two years had been soul numbingly predictable.

    There was work and work parties, sometimes at classy places with recessed lighting, sometimes hotel bars done in eighties purple, every once in a while at a blues joint, where behaving carelessly and making out in the smoky corners was okay. She never met anyone who was still …what was it? Intact. It was as if their need to couple up had replaced the desire to be something special. The desire to be loved, it seemed to her, had eaten away at them like an acid, erasing everything wonderful and lovable.

    “Stop thinking that way,” she could imagine her sister Margaret saying. “Thinking that way will make it impossible.”

    “Make what impossible, Margaret? Make what impossible?”

    Gwen rolled over and sat up, then decided to go for a walk down the beach to see if the man was there, maybe offer him a modest smile or a quick wave, some small gesture with which to make amends for her earlier rudeness.

    She studied the beach houses as she passed—glass with steel beams; dark wood, a deck full of chimes (how do they sleep at night?); Spanish style in overly pink adobe; Spanish style in normal adobe. Four houses. Just as she took her eyes off the last empty terrace, she saw the man—or a man’s legs peeking out from under a light-colored tent, sitting just at the foot of the cliff. This is crazy, she thought, but changed her mind.

    What was crazy about walking on a beach, naked? Nothing. Being afraid of walking naked on a beach was the crazy thing.

    He was sitting, she realized, under a tiny wooden structure made of what looked like bamboo or possibly driftwood, over which he’d draped a piece of material. The structure made Gwen think of the Puerto Vallarta woman. This was a good sign, she decided.

    “Hello,” she called out. She waved but kept walking.

    “Howdy,” he called back.

    She allowed herself to look up again, quickly, but didn’t have time to notice much, other than the fact that the man had a Kentucky Fried Chicken box sitting next to him. A man who brings fried chicken to beach is interesting, she thought. Again, the darkness of his body tugged at her eyes. That man spent a lot of time sitting on a beach, naked.

    She walked as far as she was willing—a long stretch away from him but not so far that she was nervous—then turned around to see him standing about thirty feet from her, his hands behind his back.

    “Oh, hello,” she said.

    “Enjoying yourself?” he asked.

    “Immensely.”

    “Don’t you swim?”

    “Sure,” she said, “I just haven’t yet.”

    The man allowed his eyes to travel up and down her body. She decided to do the same, just as she did whenever someone ogled her breasts. Focusing her gaze in an exaggerated manner on a man’s crotch had an uncanny ability to take his focus off her chest.

    She noticed he had normal arms, not cut, as her male friends would say, but nice. His chest was well shaped and covered in sun-bleached hair, which pleased her immensely. He was brown and gold, a gilded man, she thought. His hips were wide—which was expected, given his generous posterior——and his maleness, she noticed, was nicely proportioned.

    He was smiling, having apparently enjoyed her inventory taking.

    “Want to swim?” he asked.

    “I’m a floater,” she said.

    “I thought you said you swam,” he said.

    “Did I? I meant to say that I float.”

    “I’ve always wanted to try that,” he said and smiled. “Would you hold me up?”

    “Would I hold you up?” she said.

    “Sure. Water makes everybody light. Even me.”

    “You don’t seem terribly heavy out of water,” she said.

    They both looked down at the sand. If they were younger, they might have blushed.

    “Thanks,” he said.

    They walked into the water a few feet apart, not looking at one another. Though it was only June, the previous three weeks had been sunny and hot, so that the Pacific, normally so cold, was nearly warm. She walked straight in, letting herself wince once, but not noticeably. He did what she expected a man to do—at the sight of the first big wave, he dove under, his arms outstretched, as if planning to grip the wave and pull it back all by himself.

    Of course he says he wants to float but he doesn’t, she thought, and lay back in the water. He wants to swim away. The houses looked totally empty—no fathers barbecuing, no kids flying kites, no mothers watching them, no maids sweeping.

    The man must have swum away, Gwen thought and stood up to see. As if sensing her doubts, he popped up, closer to the shore, so far in that when he stood, the water was at his hips.

    He waved at her—one of those backward “come back” waves a father might offer the kid he loves. She started swimming toward him, her eyes closed. What if I swam right into you? She thought. Just hit a wall of your flesh and came up knowing where I belonged?

    She didn’t, though. She swam about five feet from him and stopped, pulled her head up, and pushed back her hair. The salt stung her eyes, but the coolness felt good against her skin.

    “Were you serious about floating?” she asked.

    He nodded yes and put his arms out, a California Jesus waiting for his cross.

    “Lay back,” she said, and he did, so slowly she felt like a minister presiding over a baptism. When he was far enough back, she put one hand under his back and the other under his legs. She held him that way for a while, looking at his face. Perhaps he was pretending—forehead furrowed, eyes shut tight, the eyelids gently fluttering—yet he seemed to be nervous and actually trying.

    “I won’t let you go,” she said.

    He smiled and she noticed that his chin was shiny. Kentucky Fried Chicken. The dark gray razor stubble on his cheeks seemed soft. He probably shaves every day, she thought. His lips were nice—big and full and soft looking, as if the flesh below their skin would be as juicy and sweet as the meat of a pink grapefruit.

    “You’re doing well,” she said and allowed her right hand to slide up, from his legs to his ass, which she rubbed, slowly, deliberately. If he felt it, his face betrayed nothing.

    She moved her left hand down to the middle of his back and removed the other one. Still he floated. They both smiled. She felt like a famous magician, holding a man in one hand, the other hand in the air, indicating this newest stunt. “Voila,” she wanted to shout.

    This is the ultimate trick, she thought, to hold someone, just to hold them like this, in water, or air, or on land or in a bed. Just you, strong enough to hold an entire person.

    People are happy when you hold them. And then they’re not. Morning always comes, and, happy as they were, they want something else. “Don’t we,” she said, aloud, accidentally.

    “What’s that,” the man asked.

    “Don’t we?”

    He gave her a big, sincere smile and opened his hands so that fists became open palms.

    “Yes, we do,” he said.

    He is so sweet, she thought, and imagined kissing him. Then she did. She leaned over and kissed those lips, which kissed back softly, gently.

    She continued holding him for a minute then slipped the last hand away and watched eagerly to see if he would float. And he did. He kept floating.

    “You’re doing very well,” she said again. She sank into the water beside him, and then swam under his body and to the shore. She walked—not slowly and not fast—down the beach. Before picking up her things, she looked back to make sure he was all right.

    She climbed back up the hill and walked to her car, put her things in the trunk and got into the driver’s seat, but didn’t turn the key. She would go home now and do things differently than she would have if she’d spent the day at work. That was a fact. She would lie around in shorts and read magazines, her skin warm from the sun. She’d play old jazz music, from college, and maybe even barbecue. She owned a barbecue, didn’t she? She’d call Janey to share dinner or maybe someone who wanted more than friendship.

    Tonight someone would leave a fingerprint. Tonight, she was certain, would be different, yet tomorrow would be just like all the other days. One day, though, she would wake up in Puerto Vallarta, in a house built by Mormons or Pentecostals or just regular Catholics, telling tourists a story for a round of margaritas. Not her story necessarily, but a story. And they would laugh, and so might she.

     

  • Pacific Northwest by Midwest

    One hundred and fifty years ago, when a Methodist pastor stumbled into
    what became Trempealeau County, Wisconsin, he thought he’d found the
    Garden of Eden. Dotted with apple trees and surrounded by lush green
    bluffs, no other place, he argued, conformed so closely to the biblical
    description of Eden. Even now, despite upstream polluters that have
    wreaked havoc on Trempealeau’s stretch of the Mississippi, the town of
    Trempealeau continues to offer a slice of Midwestern paradise.
    Trempealeau’s distinctly easygoing character, along with a persistent
    mist that hangs in the air, brings to mind many of those woodsy havens
    found along the beautiful Pacific Northwest coast. Driving to
    Trempealeau from any direction is a pleasure, pocketed, as it is,
    within a cluster of rolling knolls and crags (typical in this part of
    Wisconsin, especially along the river). Every which way, hills offer
    panoramic views of farmland furrows and wooded wildlife preserves. A
    road down the back end of one such hill deposits you into the town’s
    modest commercial area, where two city blocks are lined with gift
    shops, law offices, taverns, and lawns that are often overwhelmed by
    the Mississippi. (In French, Trempealeau means “soaked in water”.)

    Downtown’s centerpiece is the Trempealeau Hotel, a nineteenth-century
    inn, restaurant, and saloon that has become a fashionable destination.
    Dining rooms paneled in natural wood, wall-to-wall bay windows, and
    Green Bay Packers paraphernalia set a laid-back tone. Couples gaze out
    on the river as they nosh on kraut ’n’ cheese or walnut burgers—yes,
    this rural restaurant serves a number of vegetarian dishes. In the bar,
    which is darker and cozier than the dining areas, the walls are covered
    with antlers, taxidermied fish, and autographed celebrity head shots.
    Because the town’s population is just 1,600, most of whom make their
    livings in nearby Winona or LaCrosse, the bar seems to service more
    spandex-ed cyclists and city slickers than it does locals.

    There is no doubt that during the warm seasons, the town draws a
    far-flung, outdoorsy crowd. That’s because it’s surrounded by miles and
    miles of gorgeous trails that trace the riverfront and wind around
    mountainous bluffs. Off-road cyclists can cruise alongside prairies and
    buffalo farms or take grueling, uphill treks. Trempealeau even
    organizes a series of bike races, including the Catfish Days 50 Mile
    Bike Race and Tour on July 9. Hikers are free to hopscotch
    stone-studded footpaths in Perrot State Park or bird-watch in the
    wetlands of Trempealeau National Wildlife Refuge, one of the nation’s
    best spots to see bald eagles.

    For those who don’t feel like sweating, Trempealeau Hotel proprietor
    Jim Jenkins offers another option. A blues and reggae aficionado,
    Jenkins organizes a summer concert series that sends couples and
    families alike out into the hotel’s grassy backyard, where they can
    lounge before a rickety concert stage featuring regional bands.
    —Christy DeSmith

  • Gathered Here

    Your mission this coming Saturday afternoon: without upstaging the happy couple. It behooves you to be both fashionable and appropriate, because the mother of the bride might cast you a disapproving glance if you are anything less. So grab your pastel neckties, dust off some chic but not overly sexy footwear, and wiggle into those strapless gowns. Provided your dress is dazzling enough, even the bride¹s imminent mother-in-law can’t be too shocked at your tattoo.

  • Rebel Riders

    Lowriding isn’t about how close your Impala sits to the concrete. It’s
    about flexing your muscles, gritting your teeth, and shining your wheel
    covers. At least that’s what we came away thinking after the “Hydraulic
    Showdown” event, which was part of last month’s Cinco de Mayo festival
    in St. Paul. But the art of lowriding was not lost on us—not with all
    that horsepower on display, and all those eye-popping paint jobs,
    ornate mags, painstakingly detailed decals and astonishing tattoos. The
    owners of these automotive masterpieces smiled mischievously from
    behind goatees and dark glasses. Then they hopped into their rides,
    cranked the tunes (a lowrider’s nothing without massive subwoofers),
    and rolled ever so slowly by the honeys.

  • The Worthlessness of Things

    In the photo, he’s twenty-five or so. Quite obviously, the picture was taken in the early 1970s. He is wearing loud plaid pants, a shiny pink shirt with ruffles down the front and at the cuffs, and a huge bowtie and vest. His afro is cropped, but not too close, and he’s smiling, one of those big, open-mouthed smiles that shows the gap in his front teeth. But there’s something off in the man’s expression, too. It’s in the eyes. They look hollow and sad, as though deep down the man is missing something. Something he’s never had and will never get.

    The picture is a little wrinkled and stained, as if it had gotten wet, and set crookedly in a frame that’s much too large. It dangles haphazardly from a nail on a basement wall in a suburban Minneapolis rambler. It’s one of thousands of things left behind by this man with the smile—piles and boxes and suitcases full of stuff, which are being pawed through by a crowd of bargain hunters. Whatever goes unsold will wind up in an enormous black trash bin that stands out front, menacingly, under the picture window.

    This sale was different from a typical estate sale, which is different from a typical garage sale. While a garage sale represents a thinning out, the happy prospect of making room for a den or a sauna or a new season of dresses, an estate sale represents obliteration—the end of a life, or at least a life in a particular home. Usually, the endless array of items, which range from lamps to pantyhose, are neatly tagged and arranged throughout the house by a relative, or by a company that takes a cut. Everybody wants a cut. But this particular sale was chaotic, the fallout from some ongoing disaster.
    Because the arrangements are normally so logical, with their displays and tidy categorizations, it’s easy for browsers to trace the arc of a person’s existence. You can see that when they were young they traveled, went to Mexico a couple of times or Greece. There may even be Spanish language textbooks, or books on reading Latin. Reading habits are generally more ambitious in youth; there’s often a focus on modern literature and classics (which may themselves have been modern when purchased) like Fitzgerald, Hemingway, or even Rimbaud. Or there is evidence of curiosity in science or nature or philosophy. But as life progresses, ambitions dissipate or are sacrificed and the books get more modest and practical: mysteries, romance novels, true crime, and exercise guides like Stretching for Seniors. Often the newest books describe how to go on without a spouse, cook for one, cope with diabetes, or beat lung cancer. Books on diseases present significant clues. So do stacks of old TV Guides and matchbooks from Treasure Island casino. At some point, it seems, living becomes simply a matter of passing time.

    Clothing choices evolve, too, of course. Sizes generally increase as the wearer ages; the fabrics become more uniformly polyester and rayon. Wash and wear. And there are more cardigans with wadded tissue in the pockets. With shoes, women’s heels get lower and the styles wider, to accommodate foot problems that result from a life of moving around.

    In all, visiting an estate sale is like going on an archeological expedition through the ruins of somebody’s life; you, the explorer, make guesses and assumptions based on the evidence at hand. An abundance of holiday decorations usually means grandchildren. Lots of hammers and tools mean a handyman—someone who had no children to inherit them or had children who went to law school. And if, when you go into the bathroom, you see bars of soap and cans of half-used shaving cream and hairspray, all for fifty cents each, well then you have to face facts. The people who lived in the house are dead.

    At those moments, you feel like a vulture picking at a sun-dried carcass by the side of the highway. But, hey, this stuff has to go somewhere, you think. Maybe it’ll help pay for the funeral. And you reassure yourself that at least you’re not part of the network of hardcore collectors who stand outside a house at seven for an eight o’clock sale. Those are the true vampires, hoping to snap up the dishes, records, antique bureaus, nineteenth-century silver spoons, and anything else that might objectively be worth something. That might be sold on eBay for a profit. These shoppers rush from table to table with poker faces and pockets full of cash, laughing to themselves—these people don’t know what they have. Me, I go late, on the last day of a sale usually, which is often bag day. That means you can have as much junk as you can stuff into a paper sack for one or two dollars. What I look for are the sentimental items, which some might say makes me the worst type of vampire of all. I want those things that, while worth next to nothing monetarily, were special to whomever owned them. A homemade painting of a frowning poodle. A crocheted pillow that reads, “World’s Greatest Postman.” Photographs from birthday parties and Thanksgivings. Men smiling in shiny pink shirts.

    It’s an attempt, I suppose, to gather sentimentality all in one place. I’m a glutton for meaning, even somebody else’s meaning. And so my own collection of stuff is largely made up of items that once made somebody else laugh or cry, trinkets and keepsakes that were stowed in drawers and albums and chests, propped on kitchen windowsills. They are idyllic farm scenes embroidered quite obviously without patterns and little houses fashioned from matchsticks, examined and perfected as much as the builder’s talents allowed. Part of the appeal is that that these items, sitting on the “bargain” table on the last day of a sale, seem orphaned. I’m consistently surprised that nobody wants them, for they, more so than the Tiffany lamp or the ruby pendant, carry on the spirit of their former owner. Perhaps that’s why people don’t want them—nobody likes to think about the past, it seems, only tomorrow. Except for people like me. My house is full of ghosts.

    Our things speak for us, especially when we are gone. They do this both by their specificity and their context. I think about my own home: What will somebody, someday, make of my collection of other people’s poorly executed art projects, photos of unrelated relatives, and a video library that includes Ikiru and Road House? Will someone get excited about the dress in which I was married, the one my husband bought at a garage sale, and will she wear it proudly to a cocktail party in the twenty-second century? Or will it be cut up and made into sofa pillows? Or, worse, will it go directly into the big black trash bin that will be waiting under my picture window? It’s a disconcerting notion, that the fate of my possessions is out of my hands. I might choose to bequeath some things, but, really, I don’t have much that’s worth bequeathing. I won’t be around to tell the stories, funny and sad, that make my things meaningful—to describe the spot where I found the rock that looks like Abe Lincoln’s head, or relate how a napkin comes from a bar where I was served free drinks by an eighty-five-year-old birthday boy. I won’t be able to define my own history. It will be defined by estate-sale shoppers, just as I attempt to define the history of the smiling, gap-toothed man.

    ***

    The man’s suburban home was stuffed with clues, but they were muddled, confusing—they didn’t add up. Items weren’t organized or labeled. They sat in slowly rotting piles, abandoned, perhaps suddenly, reminding me of those Robert Polidori shots of Chernobyl where dingy stuffing spills from forgotten teddy bears and paint peels from walls in blisters. The man’s cupboards still contained cans of food and jars of pickles. The paper towel holder held paper towels. There were albums full of photos—the man next to a gravestone, him with a circle of kids completing some sort of craft project, him on a sofa with his arm around a pretty woman in a red dress—and a selection of African artifacts: drums, masks, and carvings, all a
    little beat up. But they’d certainly taken effort to collect. These were not the kinds of things you leave behind unless you have to.

    The most striking thing about this estate sale, however, was the sheer, surreal volume of what the man had accumulated. One room was floor-to-ceiling electronics. There were maybe thirty telephones, some working, some not; fifty or more radios of various types and sizes; an impressive collection of small televisions; and a couple of electric organs. Two children were banging on the organs. Nobody told them to stop. What difference did it make? Desperation breeds disrespect. And, besides, it was bag day. Everything had to go. Everywhere in the house, there was clothing—piled up along the walls, flowing out of half-crushed boxes, covering floors like torn wrapping paper on Christmas morning. Aside from what was plainly visible, in room after room there stood towering piles of suitcases stuffed tight with clothing—men’s, women’s, children’s, from all eras. Some rooms you simply couldn’t go into, as there was nowhere to begin. People threw up their hands. Flicked off the lights. Walked away.

    Sales like this one are always rife with gossip. Pickers wondered aloud what had happened, and stories were circulating. Those running the sale, white people, not too friendly, seemed to be disgusted with the gap-toothed man. He’d been evicted, they explained. Couldn’t say why. But what about all the radios, the suitcases, the institutional cans of refried beans? Were these the remains of a garbage house or what? A paunchy man in a white Vikings sweatshirt carrying a receipt pad said he wasn’t sure. He scratched his head. He thought the man had been African and that he had been gathering materials and goods for a relief effort. So the man, at least in his own mind, had intended one day to send all this stuff to wherever in Africa he came from. This was evidence of best laid plans not just gone awry, but exploded.

    I walked into a side room, where there was a small book collection on a shelf. I picked out two dictionaries and placed them in my paper sack, next to a carved, cracked wooden statue of a man with his head in his hands, and the photos. Browsing the rest, I spotted a book about living with schizophrenia. So there was that.

    The picture of the man in the shiny pink shirt haunted me. I put it away when I got home. Then I took it out again. And then I pinned it above my desk. What had happened to him? I opened his dictionaries and found a name inscribed meticulously inside, along with dates and origins: “November 10, 1997—Diggers.” It was an African name. I started searching. First, I drove back by the house, which had gone up for sale. I called the listing real estate agent, who was abrasive about the inquiry, probably because he, for whatever reason, had been the one who evicted the man. No doubt, he must have been a handful, but the one-man-relief-effort also couldn’t have been all bad. Regarding the motive behind the many mounds of stuff, the agent said, “I believe he was going to ship it off, but he wasn’t very good with follow-through.” Most of what remained at the end of bag day wound up in the big black trash bin. Now it was officially garbage. The agent verified the man’s name, said he was around fifty years old. He wouldn’t put me in touch with the owner of the house, couldn’t tell me how long the man had lived there, didn’t know where he had gone. “As far as I’m concerned,” the agent said via cell phone, busy, on his way to a showing, “he fell off the face of the earth.”

    Google came next. There were a couple of people in the Midwest with the man’s last name, a doctor in Wisconsin and a yoga instructor who had just moved from Minnesota to California. I left messages for them both, and for the property owner, whom I found through Hennepin County tax records. No one returned my calls. My curiosity growing, I phoned people at local homeless shelters, but they aren’t allowed to say who stays where, for privacy reasons. I even performed one of those online background searches that cost fifty dollars, which turned up a couple of scrapes with the law, a drug possession charge, another for domestic abuse. Some nonpayment of taxes.

    Finally, a phone message came from the doctor in Wisconsin. He spoke with a heavy accent. “Yes, he is my older brother,” he said. “If you have any questions you can call me at my office. He is still in Minneapolis.” I, of course, did call his office. Several times. But I didn’t hear another word from the doctor in Wisconsin. I only know that his brother is alive somewhere in the city. Who he is, what happened, why things fell apart, remains a mystery. And maybe, in the end, the details of his life are none of my business anyway. I will simply enjoy the items that were once his—the wooden statue, a bowl, a pickax with a loose head. I will imbue these items with my own meanings, create a truth for them based on the thinnest of clues, just as somebody, someday, will do again after I am dead or gone.

  • Outside the Lines

    Last summer, the “Space T.U. Embrace” project performed for the first time at the Southern Theater in Minneapolis. Space to embrace? Space tee-you embrace? Why so cryptic? There was definitely buzz around Toni Pierce-Sands (“T”) and Uri Sands (“U”). They had launched their experimental project the year before, at the University of Minnesota, and the rumor was that the couple had created something unusual and captivating.

    That was immediately clear at the Southern, as the muscular Sands powered across the stage with weightless precision and god-like intention. He was a revelation, effortlessly sculpting space with an original blend of African and Indian, ballet and modern dance, symbolic and ritualistic moves.

    His perfect complement, Pierce-Sands was long, lean, and lithe as she gathered the space around her; then she turned loose-limbed goddess as she and Sands became the core of “Lady,” with the project’s entire cast—fifteen dancers of varying skin tones, ages, and sizes—engulfing them in a celebration of grace and generosity. Little question remained as to what space the dancers were embracing. This was a performance of uncommon openness, and the audience reciprocated with emotional enthusiasm.

    In the year since that performance, “T” and “U” have transformed their experiment into a proper dance company, complete with nonprofit status and new name, TU Dance, which debuts with a program of premieres this month (June 16-18 and 23-25 at the Southern Theater, 612-340-1725). Just as one of the Twin Cities’ most beloved companies, Jazzdance by Danny Buraczeski, was performing its final concerts and closing a remarkable fifteen-year chapter in local dance history, TU Dance was making a commitment to some kind of longevity. Coincidence? Perhaps. More likely the turn of events is a testament to the fertile ebb and flow of creativity in the local dance community.

    Still, it’s not every day that dance companies get founded here, and so the question remains: Why start a company? Why here, and why now? Sands and Pierce-Sands have enjoyed fruitful, high-profile careers as performers, in the U.S. and abroad. Sands’ choreography is in the repertories of numerous dance troupes. “We wanted to grow as artists and individuals, and to bring that growth into our community,” says Pierce-Sands of their decision. “The dance world has given us so much,” Sands adds; creating a company is a way for the pair to give back.

    But behind that contribution is a mission. “The Twin Cities is at a point where art isn’t reflecting the cultural richness that exists here,” Sands says. “So we decided to create a company that demonstrates that diversity, as well as the expertise of this area’s dancers. We think audiences, even people new to dance, will gravitate toward that.”

    The pair trace the origins of TU Dance back to Johnye Mae Pierce, who, according to her granddaughter, Pierce-Sands, was the first African-American woman to work in downtown St. Paul (she operated an elevator). Grandma Pierce’s support was unwavering as Toni grew up at Minnesota Dance Theatre, joined the Alvin Ailey American Dance Theatre in New York, moved to Paris to dance with Company Rick Odom, came back to St. Paul to have a son, returned to Ailey, and, eventually, began dating the company’s charismatic star, Uri Sands.

    “I met Uri twelve years ago in Philadelphia. He was dancing with Philadanco, and I was visiting a friend who was the rehearsal director,” recalls Pierce-Sands. “He was topless and wearing black spandex jazz pants,” she adds, laughing. “I honestly thought he was a little cocky at first.”

    Two years later, they met again at Ailey. “It took time for us to get to know each other, because we were both involved with other people at the time,” Pierce-Sands says. “Uri very much kept to himself and wrote a lot in his journals. He’s a thinker and that’s what attracted me to him.”

    The true test of their devotion came when Pierce-Sands returned to St. Paul to raise her son and be close to the rest of her family; she also had offers to join the faculties of the Minnesota Dance Theater school and the University of Minnesota dance program. Sands followed for two reasons: “Toni and walleye fishing,” he says. (An avid angler while growing up in Miami, Sands fishes Minnesota’s rivers and lakes, often with his stepson. Last year, his wife bought him a fishing boat for his birthday.)

    After briefly dancing with James Sewell Ballet, Sands became a Minnesota Dance Theater company member and resident choreographer. In 2002, he signed on as a dancer and choreographer with North Carolina Dance Theatre in Charlotte, where he’s been stationed about half of the year. “It’s a lucrative situation for me and my family,” he explains. But after a couple of years of watching the couple run hither and yon, Grandma Pierce sat them down. “She told us, ‘Why don’t you guys try to work for yourselves and make your own stuff look good, instead of making everybody else’s stuff look good?’” says Pierce-Sands. “That really inspired us.”

    The duo started off with research, assessing foundation support, opportunities for performances, and the variety of dance artists and companies already in the Twin Cities. “We were looking for something we could piggyback on, some way to enhance what the community had started,” says Pierce-Sands. While they’re hesitant to say they discovered an unfilled niche, the couple did find one characteristic troubling. “The Twin Cities has one of the most diverse communities I’ve ever seen,” Sands says, “but its audiences are segregated.”

    Audiences, he argues, are loyal to specific niches—ethnic, ballet, modern, improvisation, dance theater, or even ballroom—but they rarely cross into other disciplines. TU Dance aims to attract those various niches, in part by featuring dancers schooled in a variety of disciplines, who “reflect the cultural diversity here in the Twin Cities,” he says.

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    Among the company’s eighteen members are guest artists from Complexions in New York City and Alonso King’s Lines Ballet in San Francisco—both of which have African-American artistic directors and repertories with work inspired by the African-American experience—and from North Carolina Dance Theatre. For local representation, TU’s founders cherry-picked from Twin Cities companies, including Venezuelan charmer Abdo Sayegh, a longtime company member of Minnesota Dance Theater; Stephanie Fellner, the petite powerhouse from Ballet of the Dolls; and Penelope Freeh and Peggy Seipp-Roy, who are dynamic regulars with James Sewell Ballet. The exquisite Mary Ann Bradley was a Jazzdance member, and also performs with the postmodern troupe ARENA Dances.

    In other words, TU Dance may aim to draw together and integrate audiences, but it will not sacrifice artistic excellence. “They [Toni and Uri] are driven to be an exemplar of high-quality dance performance,” says Jeff Bartlett, curator of programming at the Southern Theater. “Actually, they’re somewhat intolerant of a mindset that allows for anything less. For them, that’s not okay.”

    A third component of TU Dance’s strategy is accessibility. Pointing to the long-term success of their alma mater, Sands says that Alvin Ailey’s shows consistently sell out because the company’s works “speak to the human experience.” Similarly, the pieces he has choreographed for TU Dance “reference particular cultures, social situations, or life events. Accessibility comes through work that taps into the emotional, spiritual, and psychological aspects of our being.”

    Audiences may find other ways into TU Dance’s work, adds Pierce-Sands. “One of the lessons we learned at Ailey was that you could bring your father, who doesn’t know anything about dance, but he enjoys the music. That’s making dance accessible. We don’t have any expectations on how some
    one should look at dance. We just try to give audiences as many opportunities as possible to grasp something meaningful.”

    Sands and Pierce-Sands didn’t just look locally for dancers; teachers, choreographers, company managers, and presenters throughout the Twin Cities offered advice, especially on the mounds of paperwork necessary for incorporation and tax-exempt status. “As we launch this endeavor, one thing in particular we’ve found is that nothing in life is done on your own,” Sands says. “The dance community is helping us form this company.”

    The Southern’s Bartlett has been instrumental. “They have good heads on their shoulders,” he says of the couple, “and part of why they do is because of their experience outside this town, specifically in the Ailey company. A life in that company educates you about the reality of the dance world, it provides a lot of tools, and gives you a glimpse of what success looks like.”

    Danny Buraczeski also played a critical role. “He’s an incredible artist and mentor, whether through advice or example,” says Pierce-Sands. “Does his company folding make us apprehensive? No. Actually, we feel even more compelled to continue.” Her partner sounds equally determined. “The only way we know to start a dance company is like the only way we learned how to swim,” he says. “Just jump in the water.”

  • Long Ball

    Not much has changed in the hoarse conversation about pro sports stadiums here in the Twin Cities, at least not in the last five years. Public antipathy and skepticism remain about the same, which is to say very high. If decision-makers have learned anything, it is that one does not speak about a new stadium and a public referendum in the same breath. Almost every poll in memory has shown a clear majority of Minnesotans rejecting the idea of public funding for new sports facilities. Yet here we are again. The latest plan to make its way through the daisy chain of hearings, committee meetings, and newspaper editorials would build a $478 million downtown ballpark for the Twins, to be funded mostly by raising sales taxes in Hennepin County.

    Sports professionals and fans seem to be taking advantage of the public’s exhaustion with the subject. It is hard to deny the success of the Xcel Energy Center. New stadiums in many other cities certainly raise the pulse of billionaires everywhere. And if the University of Minnesota can drum up thirty million dollars in seed money from TCF Bank, surely the Twins and the Vikings can do the same. Oddly, public outrage also has mellowed with time, as the threat of leaving has time and again turned out to be a feather-filled bluff. Minnesotans will not be blackmailed into an immediate payout, but if the empty threat is repeated for a decade, perhaps we’ll eventually cave.

    At some point, though, Minnesotans need to accept certain unpleasant realities. The more inflexible we are about a public payout today, the more likely it is that we’ll pay twice as much tomorrow. It is not a particularly righteous thing, but professional sports are permanently woven into our civic identity. The fact is, we see ourselves as a Big League city, and we will not stop seeing ourselves that way if the Twins decamp to Iowa, or the Vikings move to Nevada. In other words, only a fool would fail to see that, within five years, we’d be paying top dollar to lure professional sports back to the Twin Cities.

    You disagree? Let history be a guide: The National Basketball Association approved moving a Detroit basketball team here in 1947. That team cost $15,000, and thirteen years later, the Lakers moved to lakeless Los Angeles. Three decades later, the Timberwolves cost $30 million, the going rate for an expansion team in 1989, and we shelled out $104 million for a new facility. The Minnesota North Stars packed their bags and left “the state of hockey” in 1993. Seven years later, the Wild expansion fee cost $80 million, the team price tag rounded up to about $116 million, and St. Paul coughed up $175 million for a new arena.

    Thus it seems to be a question not of whether we’ll pay, but how much and when. Our main problem with the present plan is part of a larger, more general gripe. Just as the cities of blue America pay the bills for red America, it’s generally assumed that people in the city will shell out for what is a region-wide amenity. Normally, this is justified in one way: People who use the stadium will pay for it. But that is not exactly how it works. For years, those of us who live and work here have been forced to pay higher prices—whether or not we are buying tickets at the Target Center or the Metrodome. If you come downtown, you already pay a higher rate of sales tax, there are plenty of fees, and parking costs are almost criminal. Thus there has been a slow but perceptible outflow of leisure dollars from our downtown districts to our suburbs, where parking is free, taxes are anathema, and surcharges minimal.

    However, now that the Twins have delineated “Twins Territory” (discovered to be roughly the entire state for which the team is named), why not reduce the burden for any proposed stadium by further spreading the cost? A microscopic sales tax increase statewide would easily pay for an amenity all Minnesotans can appreciate and use and lend their name to. We should stop punishing the city for being so popular.

  • Base Blog

    Everybody seems to have a blog these days. Your angry libertarian neighbor probably has one, not to mention the cat hoarder across the street, and the tortured teenage poet up the block. In the public mind, unfortunately, the excitable political bloggers tend to be regarded as representative—or perhaps symptomatic—of the whole phenomenon, and they certainly hog the media attention and the traffic. That’s a shame, because there are all sorts of other blog niches—literature and music, for instance—where the spirit of the enterprise takes on the quality of a lively and civilized dinner party conversation, rather than the cacophony of Babel.

    In Minnesota, there has been an unusual proliferation of baseball blogs devoted to everything from the history of the game to hardcore statistical analysis to general Twins love.

    In the Twin Cities, there are dozens of good baseball blogs and a number of excellent ones. A fascinating give-and-take has developed between the creators and readers of many of these sites, to the point where there now seems to exist a genuine symbiosis in which the various blogs feed off each other for traffic and fodder.

    In a couple of notable cases, a real sense of community has been achieved. John Bonnes’s already successful Twins Geek site (www.twinsterritory.com), for instance, has evolved this season into a group blog in which readers are welcome to become members and create their own regular posts, or simply join in the fray through the comment threads.

    Anne Ursu’s Batgirl (www.anneursu.com/batgirl) has in the last year become a true phenomenon that is generating the kind of traffic and reader enthusiasm that would be the envy of most political bloggers. Ursu is a Twin Cities writer (she has published two novels, Spilling Clarence and The Disapparation of James) and a lifelong Twins fan. With the help of her husband and her brother, Ursu launched Batgirl early last season. The site’s colorful logo, lively voice, and truth-in-advertising slogan, “Less Stats, More Sass,” quickly distinguished it from the prevailing boy’s-club vibe among local baseball blogs. Its unabashed enthusiasm for the Twins, along with an entertaining mix of imaginative prose, playful graphics (including Lego re-creations in lieu of a highlight reel), and interactive game threads have also garnered Batgirl a huge and fiercely loyal audience that is too large to be dismissed as a mere cult.

    That audience includes Twins manager Ron Gardenhire and, apparently, the majority of the players in the clubhouse. The crowning achievement for the Batlings thus far has been the creation, earlier this season, of a short animated DVD starring Gardenhire and a handful of Twins, entitled “Oh Five, The Musical!” Gardenhire got his hands on a copy, allegedly called the team together, and showed the clip in the clubhouse to uproarious laughter, creating in the process the most high-profile legion of Batgirl fans to date.

    On a recent Friday night, I talked Ursu into accompanying me to the Dome to see the Twins play the Angels. An acute observer of detail, she immediately took note of the World Series trophies on display in the Twins office, something I hadn’t noticed in nearly a half dozen years of trekking through there en route to the field and clubhouse. I am, of course, a Batgirl fan, and well aware of her loyal following, but I wasn’t prepared for the reception she received at the Dome that night. It was humbling, to say the least.

    As we made our way through the bowels of the Metrodome to the field for batting practice, Ursu was greeted like a celebrity singer of the national anthem by virtually everybody I paused to introduce her to, from clubhouse legend Wayne Hattaway to the beat writers who cover the team for the papers and wires, and even the batboys.

    As a rule, women are still seriously underrepresented in the press box at a baseball game, but Ursu settled in and held her own—it surely helped that the place was packed with Batgirl fans. Although she seemed to be sincerely thrilled to meet Andy Price, the Twins’ game-day ringmaster and the genius who invented Twingo (the fan participation game based on Bingo), she managed with considerable and obvious effort to avoid breaking the press-box interdiction against cheering.

    After the game, which the Twins won 7-4 behind a gutsy performance from starter Carlos Silva, we ventured into the inner sanctum of the clubhouse. When Ursu was introduced to Gardenhire in his office, the Twins manager reacted with almost terrifying enthusiasm, and gave her a spontaneous bear hug. He followed us into the clubhouse, announced Batgirl’s presence to Joe Mays, Johan Santana, Terry Mulholland, and bench coach Steve Liddle, and even taunted Mulholland by singing the veteran lefthander’s single line from “Oh Five!”: “My life is over.” Mulholland looked at Ursu with a bemused expression and deadpanned, “What’s that all about?”

    From that point on, everything else was pretty much a blur. I got bored as Ursu and Lew Ford yakked about video games for what seemed like fifteen minutes, and walked over to talk with Torii Hunter, who was nursing a giant ice pack on his knee. When I told Hunter that Batgirl was in the clubhouse, he went … well, batshit. He hobbled across the room and waited patiently as Ursu and Ford continued their conversation. When I finally got Ursu’s attention and she turned around to find Hunter standing there, her impressive composure wobbled noticeably for the first time. Hunter expressed his admiration, requested copies of the DVD, and gave her a hug.
    “I’m sorry,” Ursu apologized to Hunter. “I swore I wasn’t going to be a gomer.”

    “Oh, man, that’s all right,” Hunter laughed. “We’re all fans in this clubhouse.”—Brad Zellar

  • Big Top High

    Just the other day, tickets for the next Cirque du Soleil show in Minneapolis went on sale. Cirque du Soleil has a lot to answer for in these parts. Five years ago, Charlie and Julie Zelle took their children, Charlotte and Nick, on a family trip to see the trampoline queens and contortionists at a Cirque show. It appears to have changed the course of Zelle family history.

    “Nick was absolutely transformed,” Charlie said proudly.

    “Afterwards he started hanging from bedsheets tied to the banister.”

    Nick, now ten years old, is hard at work chasing his big-top dreams. He takes both private and group aerialist lessons, studying, among other things, hand-balancing and trapeze. His parents don’t lose sleep over his threats to run off with the circus one day; rather, they’re encouraging him. Charlie takes his son shopping for tight-fitting, glittery costumes. He recently rigged an eighteen-foot gymnastics structure in the backyard. In February the family even traveled to Montreal so Nick could audition for a part with Cirque du Soleil.

    In the Twin Cities, there are enough brave parents like the Zelles to sustain two circus performance schools: St. Paul-based Circus Juventas and Minneapolis-based Xelias Aerial Arts School. Nick began his studies at Circus Juventas soon after his first encounter with Cirque du Soleil. Then, as his enthusiasm grew, he moved on to study with Xelias, regarded as the more “serious” circus school. (Juventas and Xelias offer classes for adults, too. It is said to be great exercise—fear undoubtedly burns a lot of calories.)

    Lessons are a little pricey, but no more than sending a child to an average dance studio. At Xelias, a one-on-one lesson costs eighty dollars, whereas a more affordable group class costs fifteen dollars. It’s certainly less expensive than hockey, which many parents regard as the money pit of all sports. Nick, standing four feet tall and with round, daydreamy eyes, doesn’t want to play hockey because he can’t stomach the thought of falling on the ice.

    The Xelias studio is in a small warehouse in Northeast Minneapolis. Inside, the floor is carpeted with mats and crash pads. Aerialist playthings hang from the ceiling like dense jungle undergrowth, giving the place a tangled feel. Students can climb as high as thirty feet, but generally hover at a comfortable ten. During a recent session, Nick performed an exhausting hour-long circuit workout that took him from trapeze to ropes to silks (huge diaphanous drapes suspended from the ceiling). Then, after pausing to give a visitor a wet-noodle handshake, he completed an acrobatic routine of round-offs, handsprings, and backward tucks. Soon he was supporting his own body weight on a high hoop and doing no-handed “dead man” dismounts. After his feet hit the floor, he raised his chin, stuck out his chest, and stretched his thin, white arms toward the sky with a little flourish. Then he glanced over to see if anyone had been looking.

    “I’m torturing the children,” joked Meg Elias, a professional aerialist and founder of the school, who was drilling another student through sit-ups and pull-ups. (The would-be aerialist has plenty of earthbound exercises.) All along, the lithe and bendy young Nick bounced between apparatuses. He made a string of elegant poses on the high hoop, even touched his heel to his head while hanging upside-down from the thing. Then he gracefully climbed and wound himself in the silks. In between sets, he panted and sipped orange Gatorade.

    Most of the training is directed toward a performance, the aerialist’s version of a recital. At one such event, two years ago, Nick performed thirty feet above the audience on an apparatus called the Spanish Web. It is a long, hanging rope with a high loop in which the aerialist can tie a hand or a foot. Nick’s little wrist was knotted in, and a seemingly wicked grown-up aerialist on the ground violently twirled the rope cowboy-style. Nick’s rigid body quickly picked up RPMs, like a ceiling fan turned to high. It was a sight that induced not just gasps, but actual knuckle-chewing. Charlie remembered, too: “Nick was spinning around and the whole audience went Ohhh! Everybody was thinking, What kind of parents would let their kid do that?”—Christy DeSmith

  • Jackson, Action!

    The Michael Jackson trial in Santa Maria, California, is actually an autopsy. Anyone with a pocketful of perspective understands that the King of Pop has already died a slow public death, remembered less and less for his musical gifts, recognized more for his eccentricities. The best that can be said about this is that it makes most of us happy to be neither rich nor famous.

    Autopsies on TV are hot these days (see Law & Order, CSI, HBO’s Autopsy and so on). And luckily for viewers, not even a crab-apple superior court judge can keep Jackson’s salacious postmortem off the air entirely. Using fresh-from-the-courthouse transcripts—they’re public records, you know—and a cast of look-alikes, the E! network’s The Michael Jackson Trial: An E! News Presentation has become an instant basic-cable addiction by delivering the juiciest bits of each day’s proceedings as live-action re-enactments. The producers may have stopped short of building a scale model of the courthouse parking lot, but they do take the trouble to re-create a gallery of faux courtroom spectators. On a sunny spring day in Los Angeles, a visitor from Minnesota was among them.

    The actor who plays Michael Jackson is Edward Moss. Unlike the rest of the cast, he has his own dressing room, in which his makeup and fake hair are applied. On camera, he’s pretty much restricted to occupying his seat at the defense table, silent and vaguely wounded-looking. Between takes, he’s very chatty, flirting with a few girls in the gallery and drawing pictures of his fellow cast members. There’s banter among the lot of them; sometimes they take congenial swipes at one another in character.

    Because the court transcripts come straight from Santa Maria as soon as they’re released, and because the program is on deadline to assemble each episode as quickly as possible, an actor may not receive his lines for a particular scene until moments before the cameras and teleprompters roll. There are lots of stops and starts, perhaps more than usual, since the production is shooting as little as thirty seconds of testimony at a time. At a couple of points, everyone takes a break simply because there are no freshly edited scenes to shoot. The actual script pages arrive in chunks throughout the evening, presumably after somebody somewhere has pored over the day’s unabridged record and selected which segments are best for prime time.

    Some casting has to be done on the fly, too, since it’s tough to say how many or what kinds of actors might be needed until it’s known who actually testified that day. Numerous witnesses have been auditioned right there on the set. But there’s also a lot of downtime. The chatter gets heavy between takes. Cast members and the extras in the gallery volley opinions about the actual trial; a few of the latter even talk to themselves. Others read or doze off. A director frequently asks actors to simmer down (or wake up) and focus as the evening wears on.

    On a first take, when the script reveals some new juicy bit of testimony, someone might let loose a bona fide gasp or a click of the tongue. One wonders if the same is true at the crowded courthouse about three hours to the north, and if not, whether the actors here might be corrupting the reenactment, or slandering someone by not looking or behaving like their real-life counterparts.

    The Michael Jackson Trial has a few key advantages over most television shows. For one, the dialogue is unimpeachable, coming as it does from court stenographers instead of screenwriters. For another, the characters, including a global pop icon who’s better known than any pope or president, were fully developed from the outset. Not even the sexy coroners on CSI enjoy such assets.

    As the night drags on, a bewigged actor named Rigg Kennedy, who is playing defense attorney Thomas Mesereau Jr., echoes an objection that took place in the real world several hours ago. The visitor realizes with a sinking feeling that she’s missing CSI.—Sarah Benedict